One regret

You know how you do a survey or a questionnaire and you come to the question, "what's your biggest regret," and the person who filled it out before you almost always says some bullshit like, "I have no regrets because I wouldn't be where I am without every action I've done and every experience I've gone through." That causes you to say the same thing. You are right, you wouldn't be where you are, you'd be in a better place.



Well, here's my one true regret:



I have a set of friends that are closer to me than anyone in the entire world. They are closer to me than my sisters, than my parents, than God at times. Anyone who knows me knows at least three of them because I talk about those fellas and our mischiefs much of the time. Whether it may be flashlight tag with cows in a field past midnight or a video about time travel in the garage. But those who really know me know the 4th.
She's the reason I left fayetteville, the reason I never fell for "maybe you should settle for a mediocre life." She was always the cool cat who was there to pull me out of a jam and offer great wisdom. In another life, she'd be the one. But we all know the one is Zooey Deschanel. Oh buddy.
But our entire life she'd always say "hey you're gunna be in my wedding ok." That was the plan, that was the deal. Always, it's "don't miss my wedding brother." Then she called me saying "I'm getting married in 4 weeks." I told her I wouldn't miss it for the world. Well, I won't bore you with the details but long story short, I missed her wedding.
It tore me up to let her down. It hurt bad leaving her the message and hearing her leave me one earlier saying "it's been too long since we've seen each other, you being there means so much that you have no idea." I couldn't do anything about it and it KILLED me.
But this caused me to stop floating paycheck to paycheck risking large fines and such. This stopped me from planning a month ahead and now I plan months ahead.
So ladies and gents... that's my regret.